Tears of a Clown

Sometimes life seems incredibly unfair. I knew the day was coming, but being a living in denial type person, the news that a friend of mines health has taken a turn for the worse felt like a punch to the gut. To say her past six years have been tough would be a severe understatement. She's not only had to battle a life threatening disease but those who should have been her rock abandoned her. But through her strength, positive attitude, faith and will to live she has touched more lives than she probably knows, especially those of her children. I've thought of those beautiful children many times since hearing the news. I can not imagine what they are going through. My thoughts turn to my own children. What are they learning from me? I hope they learn to find happiness no matter what life throws at them. I hope they learn that if they don't like something change it. If they can not change it then accept it but don't dwell. I hope they learn that there is a healthy balance between living for today (me) yet planning for tomorrow (Dave). I hope they learn to not fear change. Change is good, it is exciting, and adds adventure to one's life. And even if the change is not so good that it is a growth opportunity. And I pray they learn to love, protect, and nurture each other and their loved ones. Most days I'd say they've got that one covered (except for the occasional sibling battles).

To my dear friend I pray God gives her peace and strength for whatever time He allows her here. And I pray her children feel her love for all their years.